One Last Cry

April 14, 2019: One Last Cry

Today would have been your 44th birthday. Even though I was coming to your grave site today, I didn’t realize until my conversation with Neicey that I was also coming to say goodbye. I woke up this morning and immediately started heading to your grave site. I listened to “One Last Cry” the entire way there as tears were coming from my eyes. They were not coming from a place of pain but from a place of closure. I could not get that at your home-going service because of all the foolishness I had to deal with that week.

Anyway, as I was crying I realized that I gave my best to you and you gave yours in return. Life is changing for me so much right now and I realize that was the reason for the tears. I had to say bye to our old life. Oh, remember those engagements I was turning down while you were in the hospital? Well, I’m being booked everywhere now. Things are coming at me so fast, but God has definitely sent adequate help. Unnia is helping/teaching me so much, both spiritually and about business. I wish you could have met her because you two would have been the best of friends, I promise. Oh, and she does not play that mess either. She will get with me quick, fast, and in a hurry. I’m always laughing when she calls herself “getting me straight” because she reminds me of you and the way you would say I need to do this or that. On another note, I now understand why you said some of the things you said to me over the years concerning if something were to ever happen to you. You knew I would need someone to help me take care of the me that I see in the mirror.

I UNDERSTAND THAT DREAM NOW

Also, I now understand why you said some of the things you said to me over the years concerning if something were to ever happen to you. You knew I would need someone to help me take care of the me that I see in the mirror. This brings me to Kudzie. I finally understand that dream now. Ann, she is everything you wanted for me. One thing you would love about here is that she forces me to take care of myself. I had to tell her I broke a bone but I was alright. She said, “YOU ARE NOT ALRIGHT, make sure you do this/that”. I remember how you would get on me about taking care of everyone else but myself, well Kudzie is on it. I can’t get anything past her. It’s like God is up there telling on me whenever I don’t take care of myself.

After you passed I was almost out of here too. I understand completely what that guy went through who passed not shortly after his wife. Your death was the first time I ever uttered the words “I Can’t”…. it was at that point that I no longer believed in myself and was ready to just drift away, but Kudzie would not allow it. You wanted me to love again and for that lady be able to give it back in return and take care of me… Ann, Kudzie is that lady, I’m 100% sure of it. She is absolutely gorgeous inside and out.

BECAUSE OF YOU

You once said that God must have put you here for others to know what not to be like, but you were absolutely wrong. I’m working on my farewell tribute to you and it’s going to be read by hundreds of thousands of people. Because of you women will know that they don’t have to settle for being liked when they can be loved. They will know that it’s okay to have standards and that they shouldn’t give themselves away to every man who says hi. It’s because of you that many women will know that they should NEVER let or turn a blind eye if a man cheats on them, hits them, or abuses them in any way. These ladies will know that true love is very real. They will know that it’s possible to marry and grow more in love instead of growing apart. You have changed the lives of so many people that you never got to meet.

ONE GLAD MORNING

After I left your grave site I was dancing in the car and the music got so good I pulled over and got out to get my boogie on. Cars were riding by but you know I don’t care about that. You would have been so embarrassed, AGAIN…… I just wanted to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! And, to let you know that you don’t have to worry about me now, I’m in good hands. I’m going to love her the way you wanted me to love her and live the life with her you wanted me to live. We’ll meet again in the sky… “One glad morning, when this life is over, I know I’ll see your face”… forever loved, forever missed.

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This post was originally wriitten and posted on Facebook April 14, 2019, Ann’s Birthday.

 

10 thoughts on “April 14, 2019: One Last Cry”

  1. Brother Derron,
    Tears! What a Beautiful tribute, “Going Home,” & husband, U gave her. She gave it right back! On my 1st tweet from her she was thanking me 4 giving U imput, on Ur book cover, 4 “If God Had a Pencil!”
    I saw how Devastated & in shock, U were, on the pix U tweeted on Ur drive home, from her “Going Home,” service & am Sorry U had 2 deal w/craziness. People Really show their integrity (or lack of it), at thise times. God has Amazing plans 4 U! Thx 4 sharing & tell Kudzie it’s ok 2 accept @EpicRoxy on Twitter! God Bless U All ~p.s.Did U really dance outside of the car? 🤔😆🤗🙋‍♀️

  2. Wow just wow…i don’t have words. You blew me away everytime im reading about your life, love with Ann. And how you also now spirited connected with Kudzie….nah Derron God has blessed you..you’re special. God really cares for his children…wow….

  3. I love this farewell to a Queen and about a Queen….written with creativity and wisdom! And this part that you wrote really stood out to me: Because of you women will know that they don’t have to settle for being liked when they can be loved. There is a HIGE difference between being LIKED and LOVED!
    Thank you for being a light among Men!

  4. Wow ..tears…this is so Beautiful …I await the day when I meet the man God has for me ..Your Love for Ann & now your Love for Kudzie(forgive me if I misspelled her name) is Truly Heaven sent & gives Hope..God Bless you Sir you Truly are an Inspiration

  5. OK Derron… Just one word: WOW!!
    Now that I have read your farewell to Ann, I now fully understand your posts about Kudzie. I have a bit more catching up to do – how long you and Ann were married, how she passed, how you met Kudzie, are you coming back to the states or relocating to Nigeria, etc, etc, etc – and plan to do so as soon as possible.
    Either way, I am so very happy for you and Kudzie and the life God has planned for the two of you together. I can’t promise it, but I will now try not to be so hard on you and your posts… But I’m still waiting for my #SyrupSandwich Reception 😄😄

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